Always Chase Your Rainbow

I’ve been meaning to write a post for a while but I’ve been super busy.  I’ve really missed it though.

I enjoy writing as much as I enjoy drawing.  I often express myself in written word far better than I would articulate in person. 

I find it therapeutic, delving into my mind and heart…..exploring what I’m truly feeling, questioning events and reflecting on my life. 

I come across as a happy-go-lucky person and I am…..but I’m also a deep person. 

I think a lot.

I feel a lot.

And I love a lot.

I have pretty BIG emotions.

When my happiness is taken away, a little light goes out somewhere deep inside me and my sparkle  noticeably dims.

I often wonder what happens to the colour of my aura when I’m sad.  I visualise it changing from a sparkling rainbow of colour…..to a faded, flat grey.

A year ago, I felt just like that.

Because it was this time last year, I walked out of my six-month marriage.  I was desperately unhappy and so was my son. 

I’d made a huge mistake and the only thing I could do was own up to it and start to put it right. 

It was probably the second hardest year of my life.  My mental health was fragile and I was in desperate need of a serious injection of happiness. 

When I finally secured a house to buy, I could finally see a light at the end of the tunnel and I never took my eyes off that light.

Even when the house purchase turned into the most drawn out, problematic sale I’d ever known….at the back on my mind, that light was always there twinkling away. 

The light was hope and faith that I would be happy again.

I was in search of my sparking, colourful rainbow and I wasn’t going to stop until I reached it.

Just over a year on, I am well and truly sat on top of the biggest, most colourful rainbow you have ever seen and I’ve been here for quite some time.

Life has never felt so colourful. 

One of the few benefits of going through a tough time is the sense of gratitude when you come out the other side. 

It’s a wonderful feeling to wake up every day, with a great big dollop of gratitude for the life you have. 

And…..I don’t have to remind myself by keeping any kind of gratitude journal, it’s just there every single day. 

Our lives are full of love, friends and good times, which is just how we like it.

Our little house is quickly becoming a fairy tale castle…..but the one where the princess rescued herself!

I’ve been working hard project managing renovations and creating a safe, happy, love-filled home for me and my boy.

The upstairs is practically finished and the downstairs and exterior are just getting underway.  My plan is to have it all done by Christmas and I’m already dreaming of festive get-togethers with friends. 

My new log burner will be burning away and I’ll be hooked up to a prosecco drip (have they invented those yet?)

The colour scheme for my new house is a lot of grey (because it’s ‘oh so fashionable’)…..BUT……. everywhere you turn there are splashes of colour and positive, happy vibes.

When you follow the light…sooner or later you will ALWAYS reach your rainbow.

 

Love Toria

xxx

 

 

 

 

 

 

4 Comments

  1. 30th June 2017 / 10:51 pm

    This. I’ve been in a similar situation and nothing matters more than doing what makes your heart happy. Inspired! Much love, Lisa xx

    • 13th July 2017 / 1:47 pm

      Thank you for all your encouragement lovely lady xx

  2. 1st July 2017 / 11:08 am

    Yay, I think you’ll really understand me when I say that sometimes it takes the grey mist in our lives to help us to appreciate how bright and vibrant the rainbow can be. I am glad you are on top of your rainbow Tor. It is a lovely place to be and you deserve to be there.

    Pen x

    Ps. I also have a lot of grey in my flat (and white). It is a good background colour for bright and vibrant paintings, doodles, photos and artefacts xx

    • 13th July 2017 / 1:49 pm

      I know you have shared experience of this Pen. It’s true, I appreciate my joy and happiness so much more now. I am sitting on top of my rainbow, prosecco in hand! xx

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